Lost for Words

Hey, um I guess I'm writing this here because I don't know how else to say it. It's not like we can actually talk about it and I needed to say something. I figured I would put my words and thoughts here, in the hopes that some day you will read them and maybe understand why it's so hard for me to say this goodbye. I've been infatuated with you for what feels like forever and it seems that no matter how much time we spend together, I still don't quite get you. You actions mostly confuse me and when you do take the time to explain what's going on with you, I am just left with more questions. It's like you enjoy taking me for a ride on this emotional roller coaster that is us. Well it's finally over and even though I can't honestly say I'm glad, I will say I'm relieved. This has been tough on me. I know in the beginning you didn't think it would last, but it turned into something much more, an experience I will never forget. I will miss you, and as I am writing this, I already do. This shall be our final goodbye. I beg of you not to try and come back and make it work again. We had a good run, let's leave it at that. I just wonder what Matthew Fox will do now?